'Apologizing' - 'Memaafkan'

pernah tak korang bagi lagu kat seseorang sebagai tanda minta maaf??

I never apologizing or ask for apologize before.

So, here from me ''Back To December" by Taylor Swift. 

''Back To December'' - lagu yang aku dengar mase dalam kereta on da way nak pegi submit 'research' aku. When I hear this song only ONE person that I had in my thought.  This was the first song that adresses to me. in that I've never apologized someone in a song before. This is about a person who was ''incredible'' to me, just perfect to me in a relationship. And I was really careless with him. So this is a song full of words that I would say to him. Aku harap 'seseorang' tu akan bace ape yg aku tulis ni & aku tau die tau yang aku sangat2 suka lagu ni.  

I'm so glad you made time to see me,

How's life tell me, How's your family?

I haven't see them in a while,

You've been good busier than ever

We small talk,work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

Because the last time 

you see me still burn in the back of your mind  

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standin' in front of you, 

Sayin' I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It's turn out freedom ain't nothin'

but missin' you,

Wishin' I realized what I had when you were mine..

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright 

I go back to December all the time...

These days I haven't been sleeping 

Stayin' up playin' back myself leavin 

When your birthday passed I didn't call 

And I think about the summer all the times

I watched you laughin' from the passenger side and

Realized I loved you in the fall

Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

''You gave me all your love 

and all I gave you was goodbye...''

'I MISS YOUR TAN SKIN,'

'YOUR SWEET SMILE'

'SO GOOD TO ME, SO RIGHT'

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry :'(

''Maybe this is wishful thinking''

Probably mindless dreaming

 

(He used to give me a second chances to love him back. But I just skrewed it. I'll never see you as a friend. I never really gave up because all that I did was pick myself up and tried to be happy. 

It's not call as LOVE for me and it hurts so much...so much...)

So..

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't, 

so if  the chain is on your door I understand

                                i wish that i could back to when i dumped him and take it back but realizing that I can't. I know that I hurt him in the past when I dumped him. So i understands if he has 'chains on his door' meaning he doesn't want to take me back in fear of getting hurt again because he love me so much and it went nowhere.

The lyrics speak exactly what I want to say to him all the time. I wish we never left each other  and I regret everyday since December.
''Regretting letting go someone who loves you
and love someone who doesn't love you back was the worst feeling ever''

-menyesal melepaskan seseorang yg menyayangi diri kita & menyayangi seseorang yang tidak sayangkan diri kite seadenya. TAPI ape yang berlaku mempunyai hikmah tersendiri. I can relate it to him because even though he was probably a good boyfriend. ...kadang-kadang CINTA saje tak cukup. kena serasi lau tak serasi same2.. well it's never goin' to work out. I was with the guy like this before, he would have done anything for me.. tapi akhirnye... saya rase saya tak happy. saya tak nak lukakan perasaan awak sebabnya saya memang sayang awak tapi bukan 'sayang' macam yang awak sayang kat saya. memang sedih tapi perasaan tak boleh pakse.

- MAAF-

 :'(